Thoughts are energy only when...Part 4

Assumptions:

What we are dealing with are the programs we created in our Bio-computer/mind.

The mind is doing what I asked it to do in childhood.

Tool# 1. Meditation is about noticing how the mind works and how I can accept or deny the thoughts I react too!

Breaking down the tree of knowledge bit by bit.

See if you can find the three parts of the cycle when we step into one:

Fear, Want, or judgement completing the cycle in ego/mind?

What I am conveying in these writings, I hope, are noticed as feelings, because thoughts are used to express energy’s vibrations when the mind is quiet. And what I hope for you to see is the feelings/ sensations interpreted as thoughts, behind the scenes.

When I was younger, I assumed everyone thought of me the way I thought of me, so I was always trying to hide me, and what better way than to make people believe I wasn’t me. I had to play make believe and pretend I was something I thought they wanted to see. After some time at this make believe, even I believed I was who I was pretending to be.

When I was roughly 5years of age, maybe even younger, I began noticing things about the people around me; they didn’t do what I thought they would do, they didn’t respond or react, the way I would have. The people wouldn’t speak the truth of how they felt and what they thought, like I would have. They saw thing differently than I did and almost everyone was doing the same things regarding the things I’ve spoke of here and many other things played into this. Because of my observations, I began doubting myself and I began thinking I was not the same as everyone, I was wrong, I was afraid of being discovered for not being the same, so, I needed to change. The creation of my opposite is now beginning! Though I still, could not tell a lie, and that, kept me almost always in trouble with my siblings.

Without knowing, I was creating who I thought I need to be, hiding the real essence I am, under what I thought I needed to be. “A lie!” If I am creating a story…Lie, is everything not also a lie? If I am not true within, then the first lie becomes something that also needs to be covered up. What we consider to be reality is a masquerade performance to hide perfection.

My assumption that everyone knew what they were doing, and I didn’t, was the beginning of my new creation…” the self,” and the mask I would now show to everyone, this created my aloneness inside. (My separation from everyone and my self-centeredness, the separation from loving what is truly me.) This one part is huge because, jealousy and envy come from this belief, that everyone is better than me. And, because everyone seems to know what they are doing and I don’t, I assume the responsibility making everything that goes wrong my fault. This was the beginning of the programming of my mind and my reactions to thought’s; this mind also creates chemical reactions producing feelings, that I didn’t want to experience again. This feeling (Fear) is now something the mind will continually respond to when the doubt arises, the mind will again create a programmed response, to an entirely different set of circumstances, that produce the same feeling. A loop is created where my mind will recirculate through assumption, fear, and a desired outcome. I call this cycle, Fear, Want, all in Judgment. This is the cycle of the mind fed by the selections I made, not realizing, allowing the mind to respond, is a choice without choosing.

I have now “assumed” an identity based on what I think I should be in accordance with my first assumption. I start taking things that I see in others and create this new character I call me, I, self, my; when really, I taught my mind to respond and react for me with these new changes, this is what we call the ego, and it is also called autopilot. The terms “I think,” “I should be,” “my-self,” are terms pointing to my creation, not the essence that is the true me, the true me is everything limited by my assumptions.

I also assume what people are thinking and I don’t say anything, thinking I know what others are doing or thinking. I would hear parts of what people are saying then jump into my memories (relating what was said to a past similar experience I had) and I don’t really hear, then I… assume the conclusion. I don’t ask “is this what you are saying?” or I don’t say, “I am sorry, can you say that again I left for a moment and missed what you said.” This is how so many fights start… Assumed deductions!

Assuming the feeling that I am wrong is why I don’t ask many questions assuming the sensations, my experiences from childhood would make me feel foolish, because I wouldn’t want to be found wrong. Do I have a desired outcome? Is my want, not a desired outcome for me? If I am trying not to be self-centered, am I not already self-centered by trying? These are some assumptions that I was not aware of; I assume an identity, I assume what people are thinking, I assume the way things might happen in my day, I even assume that I am not good enough for this life, by my own assumption or my-self critic. This self-critic is the next topic as it is one of the big ones, you know, that voice inside you that says, “Oh you don’t want to do that” or “boy you did that wrong.” Or “you know what they will say” “you fool, “that was dumb,” “you should have done that differently,” Etc. Most of our assumptions are based on that inner voice, without realizing, that voice even exists. An assumption is an invention of the mind, and it is not based in anything real, just an assumed outcome. Again, we are not the mind and its thoughts, though we did the programming of the mind. If we able to identify the voice of reason then we can change the old programs by doing the opposite of what it is saying, not by fighting with it but by noticing and saying to it, “ok maybe later” or “I hear you and we’ll see later.” Remember, the mind does not like to be told, as you don’t like to being told, it is the ego not you, that doesn’t like being told. your mind comes to your defense, so the mind will fight back, and remember the mind knows you better than you know you at this point, so it has the upper hand for now. This is why we don’t argue with the mind.

No thought…

is as spiritual

as it gets.

Thoughts are energy, when you give

thoughts, your energy.

Our minds thoughts are like a roof over,

thoughts are layered covering the structure, “our essence,”

one thought

at a time.

“DJW”